My niece .... the nark

I so can't believe her! She calls my mom .... "I know something you don't know". What a mouth!

She knows I pierced my nose a time or two growing up with a thumb tack, and got grounded until it healed. And it was one of those ... "not until you're 18" type of things. Then it was, "not until you're not living under our roof". So hey ... I'm good to go now! :)

So what does Kaylie do ... call and tell her!!! I wanted it to be a suprise! Geesh!

Shrink appointment and scrapbook shopping

Seems like the two go hand in hand ...

No real changes on my meds, the decrease he had made didn't work, so I went back up on my own. He wanted to put me on a little more, but I didn't want to ... I just want off, but then I'm a wreck!

He was concerned with my health issues of lately, and understood that on top of the adoption would make it extremely hard to start lowering a dosage. So that made me feel better (kind of).



I then went to the scrapbook store in Hagerstown, FINALLY got by Supply Savvy book!! Haven't really looked at it besides a quick flip through, but looks good! Looking forward to the class! I of course got some various other things I didn't need, but don't I always. Now I'm into buying Chinese type things just to get the name to see if I can carry it in my store. Now tell me that's not dumb!!!!!

Not a bad day, not the best ... but not the worst! :)

Life really sucks

Shyam had his court date, and unfortunately he got jail time!! Even though he's been in rehab since the incident, and doing well. Gotta love Maryland and there stupid road rage crap, I guess it doesn't matter who started it. All that matters is the one that shows up with a big title, his little kids, and bills that supposedly happened from Shyam kicking the back of his car. Give me a break! I'll give the dude the broken sensor, if that's where Shyams foot landed .... but the rest of the stuff ..... I don't see how a foot in sneakers could do that much damage without resulting in a broken foot! But who am I?

So he's in for a month ... will probably get out in 24 for good behavior, then he is going back to the rehab facility.

Then there's me, who TOTALLY forgot about his trial .... Bart and I should have been there for support. I feel horrible about that, although I know he wouldn't have expected us to.

He did get my birthday card, which his Dad said made him happy .... so that makes me happy! But jail .... oiy!

Starbucks started it ....

Last night at work, Christi and I decided we'd meet sometime late this morning at our usual spot (Starbucks). So I told her just to give me a call in the AM and let me know when to be there.
So around 1045, I get a call and we met at 11ish (we were both late). So we get our coffee (I didn't get my usual either, highly recommend the marble mocha macchiato!!!), sit, chat, catch up on everything since I'm PRN now and don't get to see her as often as I use to. Then out of the blue ... "let's go look at tattoos". I was wearing my Snakeman's sweatshirt, so I guess that's what made her get the idea ... so off we go! Of course, I feel like a big dork with my sweatshirt, so I take it off since I had a long sleeved shirt on underneath. We spent forever looking at tattoos, before we found the absolute perfect one. Out of all we looked at and liked, this one was her! It had her name written all over it! Next thing I know ... she's doing it! So there I am ... sitting talking to the chick that works the desk/floor (whatever you want to call it), and occasionally Steve as he walks in and out. Then I'm like that's it ... and I had Steve pierce my nose! :)
By this time Zeke (my man)had finished Christi's tattoo, so she came back with me ... which was too funny! Steve gave me all the details on cleaning, etc which I swear he didn't take a breath throughout the whole entire thing! When he finished, Christi said, "Say that often" at the same time I said, "don't you get sick of saying that. I know he probably doesn't do it so rushed etc, for everyone ... but it's me ... he knows me. So he marks my nose, give me a tissue because my eye would water, tells me to look straight ahead, hold still, don't grab his hands (guess it's happened or he wouldn't say it), and stop chewing my gum (man!) .... Then BAM in the needle, out the needle, in the ring and viola. The funniest part was me not flinching and Christi squirming in her chair when he poked and making painful noises!!! Cracked me up! Totally a Kodak moment and no camera (yup, me without a camera AGAIN).
Not sure what Bart thinks ... he hasn't really said, but then again ... I saw him for like .2 today. I do know he thinks I'm too old to have it. We're so opposites. I do know (even though he didn't say it) that he's glad I didn't do it with Shyam. Yet another thing Shyam has missed out on! Man I miss him!!!! He's SO not going to believe I did that when I tell him!

So what do you think ... eyebrow next??

I TOTALLY forgot

So after Christi and my adventure this afternoon, we had some lunch .... then went our separate ways. Mine ... Target, and the plan was the LSS after. (Notice the word PLAN) I have NO idea what time I entered Target, but there was some kind of time warp in there! My cell phone does NOT get service in Target unless you're standing on your left foot slightly pointed north, with your head slightly tilted up to the left and your right hand in the air! So finally I get to a spot towards the front of the store where I have connection, and call Bart to ask him something (I don't even remember). So I call and get .... where are you? Target, why? Did you get your message from the hospital? No, why? You're on call, you need to be there at 7!!!! CRAP ... totally forgot I was on call! So I get off the phone and high tail it to the check out, run home (okay, I drove ... safely), run in the door, give lovin' to Socs, say hi to Bart who's on the couch ... and up the stairs to change. I change ... come down and sit for not even enough time to sit and leave. (I just needed to sit ... I was too rushed). Bart sees my nose and slightly smiled and shook his head, then informed me I needed to bust a move! So off I go ...
I give Christi a call on the way to let her know I got called in (she was working as well), so I would get to see her tattoo (I didn't get to see it earlier because they bandaged it up before I could). So we roll in about the same time (both late ... go figure), clock in at 1904 (SWEET ... 3 minutes to spare!) ... talk about good!
Christi's tattoo was adorable and she SO loves it ... as did everyone else! She was telling EVERYONE! Not many noticed my nose, unless I pointed it out ... so see ... not too old, not noticeable! As Christi said, it's me ... it just kinda fits.
Very good night ... so didn't need me. Shanna was working .... which Christi and I both have NO idea why we didn't call her for our Starbucks meeting! It's the 3 of us who go! And get this ... Shanna was pretty much there when we were!
But anyway ... good night ... great being with my girls, I miss working with them both! I miss my 12's with them! I do admit that ... I'd do 12's if I was guaranteed to be with them! I don't think they'd do that though!
So all was good .... I forgot I was on call ... made it on time, got paid nicely which is good because I somehow spent $80 at Target (which all fit in a regular sized bag????? I have no idea what I got, need to check that out I think!

Shew .... I'm beat!

IKEA so rocks!

How can someone not like this store? I can (and do) spend hours upon hours in there!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!! We went and pretty much figured out all our bedroom furniture ... we had a few ideas, came home and now I think we have it settled. So much for keeping the master bath as is since we're going with white furniture! But oh well!
I found some cool things for my scrapbook room to, but go figure ... they wouldn't fit in the car! Don't you hate that? So maybe we'll get them delivered when we get our bedroom furniture. Who knows. I need to do something to this room .... it's one, a total mess ... but it's more a lack of places to organize everything. Not to mention I'm not utilizing the space I have very well at all.

We did the usual post IKEA thing ... came home and took a nap. Not too fond of that, but I did it ... always feels like such a waste of a day napping.

But we got a couple cool lights, a new lamp for my scrapbook room because somehow I broke mine (who knows how), another thingy for the babies room (because last time we didn't buy enough), and tons of other odds and ends! Just love it! :) Now to go back again! :D

Today Bites!

Totally hating today! It's beautiful outside, 43 degrees, sun shining ... but I am in the worst mood!!!! I don't know if it's because this whole month has just sucked or what ... but I am hating it!!!

I had wanted to go away for a "mini vacation" for my birthday, which I kinda thought we were .... but I was wrong. Bart didn't even take yesterday or today off! Not even a half a day or anything! Since I have to work Sunday, we can't even go to my parents for the weekend!

I guess I just have too much going on and it's catching up with me .... who knows! My health, the whole adoption hold up, my store, work, and on, and on, and on ...... Too many things up in the air in my life right now, and I hate it.



I thought about going and getting a tattoo today for Shyam's birthday, but decided not too. I'd rather be getting it with him, so I thought that would just be depressing. So I guess I'll just stay in my blucky mood!!!!

Happy Birthday Shyam .....

Every woman should develop the kinds of bonds that will allow her to know she has someone she can count on. Someone who will give her the best advice, even if it is unpleasant. Someone who will expect the most from her...and someone with whom she can celebrate life. Maya Angelou

Another year of laughter, love, and being there for each other. Another year to celebrate having a wonderful man like you for a friend.
Happy Birthday!!


If only I could wish him a happy birthday in person .....

Happy Birthday To Me :)

Yup, today was the day .... my glorious birthday (even though it wasn't all that glorious this year).

My sister came over with my gift .... yummy philosophy limited edition kit called Greetings from Maui!
If you are dreaming of a relaxing vacation on a beautiful white sand beach beside the beautiful crystal-clear water but can't get away, turn your bathroom into your own island oasis with Philosophy's award-winning, ultra rich 3-in-1 shampoo, shower gel and bubble bath, and body souffle in Coconut Cake. It's the ultimate mini-vacation - go coconuts!
Smells so delish, and I can't wait to use it .... I just hope my bathroom will turn into my own island oasis! :)

My mom of course called and sang, and when my Dad got home from golfing, he sang. Can't beat there original renditions of Happy Birthday! My Mom thought she would be here before my birthday, so she didn't mail my gifts. I told her no biggie ... I'll get them soon. (Gotta drag this out some)

Bart got be a beautiful card, the hoodie I wanted from Snakemans (where I got my tattoo) and this stupid book on things from 1975. It has prices, ads, etc ... so him! He knew I'd think it was stupid ... more up his ally than mine! Not sure why he didn't get a 1974 one instead for himself. But I guess not much really would have changed in a year.

We went to German Town For Sushi which was SOOO yummy!!!!! Had a yummyappetizerr of beancurd (Bart wasn't too keen on that), and then sushi, sushi, sushi!!! And of course I ate all the soy beans! LOVE those!!!! I talked him into stopping by Target on the way home to see if they had anymore of the storage solutions things in, but they didn't. Then we came home for cake and ice cream!!!!

Since I'm now 31, I thought it would only be fitting for me to be mature about what I picked to be on my cake. So thelovablee girl that's back from the past Strawberry Shortcake it was!!!! TOO cute of a cake ... and very good too!!! Socrates even got a piece! And of course you can't have birthday cake without Breyers Vanilla Bean ice cream! Very good!

Not too bad of a day .... I'm a bit on the edge, but trying my best not to be. Too much going on right now for me not to be. And the fact I thought Bart was taking off today and tomorrow and he didn't .... so didn't help anything! But I guess in reality (or most people's reality, just not mine) a birthday is just another day. And mine has just about ended .... so off to bed I go!

Happy Valentine's Day

And what a day it was ....

I'm going to spare you of the extremely grotesque details of how I woke up this morning ... well afternoon. Then how I spent the day, then the evening in the doctors office for 2 hours! (They were WAY behind)

Just a total icky, nasty day!

As we say in the waiting room, I looked at Bart and said, "real romantic, huh?" Being the sweetest guy he is, he said, "we're together". Gotta love him!!! :)

Thought I'd share the song in my head ....

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don’t belong
You’re the first to fight
You’re way too loud
You’re the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something’s wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
Well he’s on the table and he’s gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they’re doing here
And your friends have left you
You’ve been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And i, I want you to know
Everyone’s got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you’ve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
Understand
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand


Jumper ...... Third Eye Blind

I HATE days like today

First I wake up around 3 - 3.30 AM in a jolt! I don't know if I had a bad dream, or a panic attack in my sleep ... but when I woke up, I was awake, and on edge. So not the best start to my day! I get up come downstairs and write some, then down to the basement to scrapbook (which I never did). I got caught up in Bazzill, and figuring out prices.
I instant message my husband at work to see if he was busy because I had some things I wanted to talk to him about, and he said he was. Then he started asking what I want for Valentine's Day! So are you busy or not? Busy in general yes, busy at this moment no. Whatever!
I end up going back to bed ... it's about 1 something. Set the alarm for 2.50 and fall asleep crying. I wake up at 3.20 something with the annoying buzz going off, I had slept through my alarm and I had a 3.30 appointment with my neurologist!!!! Socrates wants out, I needed to get dressed and do something to my hair and get to my appointment in 10 minutes. I pulled into the parking lot and parked at 3.38, walked in, checked in, and was paying when the appointment ahead of me came out! What timing!!!!
So a short visit .... all is well with my restless legs. I could be on a higher dosage, but I don't want to be. So I'm staying where I am, and go back in 6 months.
So now it's almost 5 and where has my day gone? I did nothing really when I have so much to do!!!! I have to work tomorrow night, then I'm off until Sunday. I so don't want to work, I want to stay home!!!! But of course I can't do that! Heaven forbid!

I swear I'm to the point where the slightest little bit of wind is going to push me over the edge!!!!!

Snow vs. Ikea

The snow won!

We've been planning for TWO weeks to go to IKEA today to get some things for the babies room and look at new bedroom furniture, etc. TWO weeks!!!! You know how I love this store ... so waiting two weeks was a LONG wait!!! Then to wake up to a foot or more of snow, and then hear that they got even more where Ikea was ... I just turned over and went back to sleep! Maybe Bart will take off one day this week and we'll go. (A girl can dream, right?)

Stampin' Up! party

Today was the day ... my fear of snow keeping people at home vanished as people started showing up! A few stayed home due to the forcast, but 5 ventured out! A very nice number if you ask me! Everyone loved everything I had planned and it all went smoothly (even though I was EXTREMELY sleep deprived ... go figure). I stayed up ALL night cutting the pieces for my make 'n take and getting everything ready. I put each project in a baggie, made directions for one card (it was a take home because I didn't think we would have time to make it), etc. I was busy. Never got around to cleaning my SB room ... but the kitchen table was perfect for the amount I had!

I haven't met my goal for my party yet ... still hoping! I know SOMEONE out there will need SOMETHING! Right?

Friday .... have to work

So not wanting to go into work tonight!!! It's only four hours but I have SO much to do here it's not funny!!!! So I guess I'll be up all night cleaning my scrapbook room for my Stampin' Up! party tomorrow AM! I have MOST of the projects ready to go .... I still need to finish doing that. Bart's going to the store to pick up a few things for me tonight, so that will be helpful! And of course ... it's suppose to snow!!! So watch us get all this snow and nobody but my neighbor show up ... geesh! Now that would be my luck!

I have a killer headache! I just want to go back to bed, my anxiety is crazy high, another reason to go back to bed! But bed will wait, as usual .... maybe I'll get some sleep before my party!!!!!

So great to hear from Shyam

Man was I surprised today when I got an instant message from Shyam!! Today was the first day he was allowed out. He was in the library. It was very nice to talk to him, even if it was over the computer. He said he's doing really good (if he did say so himself). He said his anger outbursts haven't been as bad, and he's more or less stopped cussing (which is saying A LOT)!!!!
His court date is the 21st. His lawyer said they would probably ask for jail time, but would most likely suspend it as long as he stays in treatment. So hopefully that is what happens.
I found out more about they type of place he is at ... not what I was thinking. He's still in drug rehab .... just long term (rather than the short term he was in previously). He said it's a year program (or at least 7 - 9 months)!!!! Okay, of course I start crying because I thought it was a 4-6 month program. But if it works, that's all that matters! But the thought of not having him for that long is hard to even think of!!! But again, that's being selfish on my part ... but I can't help it!

Hopefully I'll hear from him soon!

Betcha won't guess what I had this morning ....

Counseling! Go figure .... :)

This was actually a good session, we talked about some things that needed talked about (my brother). I was given some info to think about and we're going to continue on it next week. (Well the week after, I canceled next weeks ... there was a reason, but I forget why ... oh ya, my birthday week!)
We also talked about me taking more vitamins to help with my lovely PMDD. She thinks being a vegetarian might contribute to my PMDD, but she doesn't know. And yes, I should be taking vitamins .... I use to, but it's one of those got sick taking them on an empty stomach and stopped type of thing. So if it helps my PMDD or not, it's something I should be doing anyway.


I got "in trouble" for not listening to the tape yet. Is it my fault I can't find a tape player? I've looked .... but then she brought up the internet, like amazon.com. Good point, and why didn't I think of that! So I have until our next session to do it or she's going to just do it during my sessions! UGH! So I WILL have listened to the tape by then!!

Missed the Superbowl

Leave it to me to sign up for call for the Superbowl! Of course I get called in for the full 12 hour shift!!! No biggie ... Christie was working, so we had a good time. And the Stealers .... they rocked the house baby! :)

Needless to say, I'm not working critical shift tonight ... there's no way. When the doctor tells you to stay off your foot as much as possible for 3+ weeks ... I think that he really means it! :) Not that I've ever been one to listen!

I'm exhausted, but I don't want to go to bed and ruin my day off .... so we'll see how long this will last! :)

What a week!!!

I worked WAY too much this week, it's one of those weeks that feels like it's been months! I got called in for 5 hours Monday night, which was no biggie ... they so could have done without me. Easy night, really easy money! :) Then I worked Tuesday, always off Wednesdays (counseling day), then I have worked every day since!!! Tonight I'm on call (fingers crossed I don't get called in), then I'm back in Monday! All this critical shift money better be worth it!!!

Thursday we met with Heather (our social worker who did our Homestudy) to answer some questions and give her more information so she could get another letter written to send to China. The first one she wrote and gave to Xiumen to translate, she was given it back and told they wouldn't accept it. All she did was elaborate on what she had already said. So back to the drawing board for her ... hence the meeting! Hopefully this letter will be satisfactory to the CCAA and we will be on our way to getting our baby girl. Of course, we're the first to have this happen to ... so leave it to us!

Bart went "fishing" with the guys this weekend. Not that you can really fish at this time of year ... especially as cold as it was there, even snow! Why do they bother calling it a "fishing trip"? HUGE fight over him going! He seems to always pick the worst times to go. Yes, it's nice HE gets away from the "real world" to relax and have fun ... but it would be nice for me as well! I haven't gotten to do that since we went to the beach, and he went on his "fishing trip" 3 times last year, then this is the first this year. I think most of our fighting was just a built up of stress and frustration over the adoption .... that and I don't think it's fair he gets to go away and I don't. But anyway.

Tonight's the Superbowl ... Steelers all the way baby! :) We'll see if I can stay awake to watch it! (I've been up since 3.30 PM yesterday)

Speaking of yesterday ... I got my hair cut. Not to worry, I won't go into nauseating detail as I usually do about the whole experience (which is TO DIE FOR). Loree (the girl who cuts my hair) is so cute ... she's due March 6th and is more than ready!!! She's one of those cute skinny pregnant people! And of course, guess who forgot her tip AGAIN! (Second time in a row) I need to just get a gift card to Target or something and send to her! And I didn't have money to tip the chick that washed my hair and massaged me ... totally hate that because MAN did that feel good! After I got my hair cut, I went to Target to see if they had the Storage Solution things for my scrapbook room. It was a no go ... however they did have the things in the dollar section that will hold 6x6 paper, so I picked up two (would have gotten more, but they were beat up). So not a total loss of a trip. But because of the Target trip (and the lovely weather ... RAIN), I was really pushing it to get to work on time. But not to worry, I did!

Now comes the big decision ... go to bed, or surprise my sister and show up at church? I guess I'll go look in the mirror and see how bad the bags under my eyes are and that will decide for me! :)