Rain .....

Okay, sometimes rain is nice .... we need it. Everything dies without it, gets dry, then there are forest fires, etc. But geesh ... give me a break already!!!! A week of rain ... and I mean RAIN RAIN not just rain, storming pouring down rain .... ick!!!!

I mean a nice rainy day, stay in your jammies, veg around all day and eat soup. But for a week .... yuck!!! Enough already!

Tears .....

Tears are feelings we can't say .....

Does Kate Starr rock, or does she rock???

Last night Kate rocked DC, of course I was there rockin' out!! (Like I'd miss seeing Kate when she's in DC!)
After her set we hung out and had a lot of fun talking, guarding the restroom Charlie's Angel style of course ... which lead to a new dance! :) (Of course lead to goofy pictures) Tons of fun as always, it's hard to be with Kate and not have fun!!!

After about 2 songs the batteries went dead in my camera .... yup, DEAD!!!! Terry being the sweetheart he is, ran like 5 miles (in the rain) to buy a pack of batteries for me .... he unfortunately missed all but the last 3 songs ... but still had a good time! And I got to take pictures (as I ALWAYS do). (Thanks Terry, even though you didn't have to)

It was a VERY fun night .... if you ever have the chance to see Kate Starr, don't miss out!!!!!! (And if you haven't voted for her today for her chance to perform at Lolapolooza, get to it!!! www.katestarr.com)

How do you get through?

How do you get through a part of your life that seems impossible to dredge through? As you go through the fog thinking it's getting better the fog just gets thicker!
Daily activities I once enjoyed, I don't have the desire to do. For example ... scrapbooking. There is SO much cool new things out there, paper that I'd love to create layouts on and embellishments, but I can't do it. I've tried, I want to, but I can't bring myself to do it. I look through magazines at all the inspiration that I use to go to my scrapbook room and use, but now I see wonderful pieces of work, beautiful pictures, adorable children ... and get depressed. I want nothing but pictures of my own child to scrapbook!! I can't get get over the fact that right now I would be in China getting my baby. All the pages I did of the process ... all the paper and embellishments I purchased to scrap with that I won't be able to use now.

So how do you get the fog to thin? How do you get past this loss? Is it possible to actually move on??

Standing Still

That's what I've been doing for months ... standing still, completely and utterly still. The world has been drastically changing around me like a whirlwind and I've been standing still in the middle as everything around me keeps spinning out of control.

I feel as if the world as I knew it simply crumbled into itty bitty pieces underneath me and I went down in the rubble. I'm not sure which is harder ... feeling your world crumble or trying to pull yourself out of the rubble. Then of course the next step .... rebuilding your world (I can't even begin to think of that now).

At least I've stopped standing still ... I've gotten out of the rubble for the most part (still some pieces I'm trying to get off), but at least I'm no longer standing still!

Just a quote .....

"Peace begins with a smile" ~ Mother Theresa

The Way I See It #83 (from a Starbucks Cup)

LOVE this one!!!

"They told you that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. What they failed to tell yo u is that it is best seen with the eyes closed. What you look like isn't important. What is important is who you are inside and the choices you are making in your life."

--Tianna Tozer (1992 Paralympic silver and 1996 bronze medalist, women's wheelchair basketball)

Not sure if I will or not ....

I know there is a HUGE gap in my blog, a lot has been going on in my life and I didn't want to blog them ..... there's too much truth in words. I'm not sure if I'll go back and fill in the blanks or just leave it as it is and hope somehow those days of my life disappear!

So for those who thought I fell off the face of the earth .... I didn't, it just crumbled beneath me and I've been trying to crawl out of the rubble.

A day of fun

Today I got to spend the day with none other than Bryce!!! That little kid is WAY too freaking cute and funny, I'm proud to say he's my nephew! I wish I got to spend more time with him. He's into "squished pennies", so of course that's what he wanted to do. Unfortunately there aren't any places around here to get any ... the closest was at a place called Jeepers about 40 minutes away. So that's where we went. He got his 4 different pennies, and played tons of games, rode some rides, and of course cashed his tickets for some (what he thought were) cool things. We then went to Dave and Busters .... much more fun!!!! There he had a blast ... we decided next time to skip Jeepers! Bart wasn't feeling well, so Terry went with me .... so it was like having two kids to keep an eye on! :) Bryce is so self sufficient, he'll walk off to get an attendant to let them know the game isn't working properly, etc. I don't know how many times I had to have a talk with him that he was not allowed to go out of my sight!!! He won TONS of tickets and got a few things and we were ready to go home.
Fun was had by all, but man was I tired!!!

My tongue

Today was the day .... I've wanted to get my tongue pierced for awhile, and today was the day! I think piercings and tattoo's are addicting!!! :) (I have Zeke working on designing my new tat).

Yes I talk funny, but it doesn't really hurt all that much ...