As boring as it may be, it's my life. You live life and learn as you go along. So hop into my life and enjoy the ride! (You don't want to forget to buckle up, sometimes it's one heck of a bumpy ride!)

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

This totally kills me!

Right now, Bart is upstairs in the bedroom talking to Shyam on the telephone. I called Shyam late this evening to update him on the recent events and asked if he could give Bart a call because I knew he'd talk to him and he's not talking to anyone else. So it wasn't 10 minutes and Bart had instant messages and an email saying call me now from Shyam.

I'm very thankful Shyam is loyal and caring enough to call Bart after everything they have been through. It's nice to know that all it takes is a message or phone call and Shyam will be there for him. Don't get me wrong ... I'm extremely grateful that Shyam is there for him, but on the other hand it really hurts me that he's not there for me. Yes he reads my messages, yes he listens to my voice mails ... but he doesn't return anything.

I don't understand it ... I was the one who stood by him, not Bart.

Another mystery of the universe I guess!

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I never thought I'd do this

Today I went and met with an attorney regarding a divorce. This is something I never thought I'd do, but I think it's for the best. I have to think about my own happiness.