The Way I See It #208 (Starbucks)

"I wish couples who desperately take every means to conceive a child would realize that adoption is a wonderful alternative. A child who becomes your child through adoption completes a family. Just as when you commit to your spouse or partner there are no biological ties, yet a family was formed. This child enters a family the same way! It is not blood and flesh that form a family, but the heart."
by Michele Johnson (Starbucks customer from Wamego, Kansas)

Another tattoo

After talking about getting my foot done since April, I finally did it.
Poor Zeke has been wonderful throughout my decisiveness with this. I went from one thing to another. He drew some wonderful tattoo's for me, but they just weren't it. I wanted something to symbolize the adoption ... well, lack thereof. I thought somehow it would help me heal. I envisioned Chinese eyes and swirly things, but it wasn't coming together. We did various flowers, etc and nothing hit me. Zeke went as far as contacting friends and family in China and other Asian countries for help! (Is he not the best?) The last thing he drew for me rocked, but I just couldn't picture it on my foot ... he drew an uber cool bonsai tree with a Chinese face hidden in it! ROCKED!!! Very unique .... but still not it. Finally I came across a doodle (so to speak) and took in to him ... told him to do as he wished (which I've been told you don't tell that to a tattoo artist since they're putting something on your body that's going to be there forever). I trust Zeke with my life ... let alone a tattoo! He knows me, knows what I like, who I am ... I knew he'd do something wonderful. And after all, he IS Zeke Owen!!!! That in itself is enough! :)
So I came home with a rockin' doodle with stars all around it. (We threw the Asian flair out the window.) He also did it in color ... something I always said I wouldn't get (a tattoo with color). He asked if the color was okay before he did it ... and I just repeated it was all him. :)
So now to see how my parents react to this one ... I think they'll like the other one more since it's hidden! :)

Now to start planning the next one! :)

It's almost that "wonderful" time of the year

This year has flowen by, I can't believe it's December, let alone mid December!! The weather has been mild, we haven't had snow (just a flurry), and it doesn't feel like Christmas is in slightly over a week! It might have something to do with our house being a Christmas free zone, no tree, not even a wreath on the door! I just couldn't do it, as much as I love decorating ... I couldn't do it. To think last year at this time, we were anxiously awaiting our picture and history of our daughter. She got an ornament (or two), gifts, outfits, etc. I know I personally looked forward to this year as a wonderful year. I thought it would be full of the laughter of a child, the pitter patter of little feet, and the joy of parenthood. I looked forward to decorating for the holidays, making cookies, sharing traditions, and making new ones.

Part of me wants to put up a tree and lights, and all the beautiful decorations I have, but then I'll just be reminded of all I don't have and thought I would have.

Just a little update ....

For those wondering if Sandy has called .... no.

She has however been able to send out 3 group (as in to all adoptive parents) emails though! Makes you kinda wonder doesn't it?

Yes, Bart will be calling first thing when they open. If he has to leave a message and it's unanswered, he's calling again before she leaves for the day. This will go on until she talks to him. Or at least until the end of the week.

She has ALWAYS dealt with Bart when it comes to anything, any problem that arose, that's who she spoke with. He's more .... how would you say it ... Diplomatic than me. He'll express his feelings, but in a professional way. She thinks I'm just this nice soft spoken chick ..... man is she ever wrong!!!! I was giving her until April to get us some answers we're happy with, not just the crap that she thinks we want to hear. We want the truth! She's about to meet the real Abby .... and she will NOT like it one bit! I am NOTHING like my husband when it comes to handling situations! I live by my own rules, I don't play games and I refuse to have them played with me.

So we'll see what happens .... and of course I'll keep you posted!