The worst Christmas EVER

Okay, so it's not even Christmas yet ... but let me tell you, this is the worst one EVER!!!! This tops the one, my brother was in Panama in that stupid war and we didn't know if he was dead or alive.

Just talked with my mom and sister ... since my brother's wife has "issues" with my sister and I (which is more like issues with herself, but that's another story), they're not coming here for Christmas. Since Bryce is the youngest Grandchild, my parents want to be there for Christmas, rather than here like it's been for the past 14 years. So they're coming this week for a couple days, and we're going to the Japanese Steak House for dinner, then back to my sisters for the gift exchange on Wed. Then they're leaving Thursday morning. So, I thought well ... maybe we could go home for Christmas, there's nothing like being home for Christmas. But nope, can't do it because I'm on call Christmas day (even though I'm not even suppose to take call days, and didn't agree to it). So this will be the first Christmas I have spent without my family! I think my sister and her family will be going to spend Christmas with her mother in law since it's her first Christmas without her husband, so I won't even have them.

Okay, so I know what you're thinking ... "I thought you were skipping Christmas this year". I was ... but I didn't mean like this! I just didn't want decorations, etc ... I mean, we're never home on Christmas day anyway ... we're always at my sisters. So now, it's REALLY being skipped, and I'm devastated! I so want to just take the few stupid things I've put out and just throw them out the door! I want this month over!

I thought maybe it would be fun to do an open house for our friends ... but who's going to come over on Christmas? They'll all be with there families. Heck, even Shyam ... I don't even know if he'll be out by then! So this year, the 25th is just another day for us. No gifts, nothing .... just each other, and a baby in China.