Hopped up on goofballs

It's freaking 1AM!!! Here I am awake, but feel asleep ... make sense? I took my regular nighttime pills .... then the BAM kick it up a notch Ativan .... then after over an hour another Klonopin. Now tell me why I'm awake, would ya?

I'm to the point of not feeling I think .... which I like sometimes, it's a nice break from reality! But there's a panic attack inside me that wants out and can't get out. Now that is frustrating!!!!

I work tomorrow ...w ell I guess it's today ... tonight rather! Maybe that's the cause of this problem. I just wish it wasn't 12 hours ... 4 maybe. I could do 4 ... you're there then it's time to go ... I can do 4. But nooooo, it's 12. How oh how will I get through this?

Now the problem is getting back up the two flights of stairs to get back in bed .... it was hard enough getting down them. Oiy