Another day ... another NOTHING

Okay, so I was to work tonight ... but couldn't! I tried SO hard too!!! I just couldn't, I was a mess!!!! Bart keeps saying I just need to do it ... get back on the horse so to speak. But I don't think that's it, I think there's more to it. But what do I know?

So he says Wed (that's tomorrow) I'm going .... and I'd like to, but don't feel ready. But I guess I can always put on my happy face as I've done most of my life and fake it! Then just hide in the restroom most of the night!!!! I'm just at a loss ..... I feel like I'm losing ground!!