Insomnia

I'm back to having sleeping problems, which really sucks!! It's like I'm reverting back to how things were years ago ... bad anxiety attacks, not sleeping, crying for no reason, etc. I don't get it!!! Things were good for so long, then BAM ... it's all back!

I have a lot on my mind, so I know that has something to do with it. But I wouldn't think it would cause this much problems. One would think working would be better, but WRONG! Having the kids in the Emergency Room made me realize how much I want children, then to realize there's a huge possibility that I never will have any children. And to make it worse there was a little Chinese girl, who was an absolute doll!! She was beautiful, and did great with her breathing treatments ... made me once again remember what I almost had!! To think I could have a daughter now ...

The many thoughts that go through my head ... if only I could record them, I'd have a best seller!!!