Depression NEVER goes away ...

When you have depression, you always have depression. You can have good days, you can actually go months and months without having a bad day, but it's inevitable depression will come out.
Not that I've had an easy few months (well, more than that), but I haven't had days where I just want to stay in bed and cry. Not until Wednesday anyway ... now I just can't seem to snap out of it. I'm on my medication (I've weaned myself way down on my Clonopin though), so why am I feeling like this??
I didn't sleep all that well last night, but I did sleep ... I got up this afternoon and just felt blah. I didn't feel like doing anything, it took all I had not to just go back to bed and cry myself to sleep. But after three hours or so, I gave in ... bed became my solice, and my tears just fled from my eyes. But did I feel better? Nope ... if anything I felt worse, so why crave doing something that makes you feel worse??

Life ... will it ever get easier??