Why is it?

Why can't things in my life remain constant? Everything goes well, and stays well .... does that happen??

I was going along thinking everything was fine .... I was married, going through an adoption process ... looking forward to having my baby daughter from China, buying clothes, getting a room ready, etc. I had friends, one in particular that I cared more for than he'll ever know. He understood me, stood by me through everything, as I did for him. Doesn't sound too bad, really. Not the perfect life, but not bad!

Now here I am, adoption called off .... I hurt thinking about that daily!!!! Today I watched the little girls 2 homes down play as the Mother took the groceries in. I went to get the mail as they were pulling in ... the oldest of the 2, waved from her back seat car seat in the minivan and said hi to me in her cute little voice. As I watched them play, I couldn't help but think ... my daughter could be playing with them. And not only that ... it's a Chinese family, so she would learn about her culture. So I sat here looking out my bay window watching them with tears down my face.

Then there's the friend .... the one that can't even return an call or an email. The one that can't even thank me for a gift.

How can someone's life turn so bad so abruptly??